When the doctors told me that oliver was very sick i went back to my room to tell olivers daddy what the doctors had told me.We both went back down to see oliver and the nurses explained to us that he was still getting no better and it might be a good idea to think about having him baptised,we said we wanted to have him baptised but not straight away as we wanted olivers grandparents (ann&john) to be there.Later that day ann&john came into the hospital to see oliver and to be there when oliver was baptised.when we all got to oliver they were working on him and i could tell by the nurses face who was looking after him that this was the end, i looked up at his monitor and his heart rate had gone very low.i knew he was dying so i asked the nurse to pass him to me,i held him,kissed him and passed him to his daddy,then his nanny ann held him and he was still fighting it.oliver took his last breath in his daddy's arms,he then came back to me that was when the nurse said she would take us all to the family room so we could all spend some time together with oliver and have him baptised.The chaplin came she was a lovely lady she just did something short but i felt it was a very special moment for us all,she gave us a certificate,a little teddy,an angel candle and a little white bible for us to keep in our memory box.After oliver was baptised ann and john left me and olivers daddy to have soom time on our own with oliver.Olivers auntie amy and my best friend harriet came in the family room to see oliver for the very first time,they didnt find out about oliver passing away until they got to the hospital,both of them were very upset,we all were.Amy and harriet both held and kissed oliver,we had pictures taken and then we handed him back to the nurse so she could clean him up and dress him for us.We went out to get some air,ann and john went home.We asked the nurse if she would bring oliver to my room back on the ward when they finished dressing him so we could spend time with him,amy and harriet came back to my room with us,the nurse brought oliver to us, she made him look lovely and he looked so peaceful.I sat on my bed looking at him in my arms,is all i kept thinking was,im never going to hear my baby boy cry.After amy and harriet left we spent most of the night with oliver just holding him and kissing him.3 days later we had to leave the hospital and our baby boy behind.